*sticks foot in mouth*

(written January 30th, 2007)

hehe... I just got back from school. I ran into Dr. Kris and she asked me if I was still interested in doing Fiddler. I'd have to be the 2nd chair 2nd violin. Apparently my spot (I sit there in orchestra as well). Anyway, she said she appreciated my enthusiam, and when they needed an extra person she thought of me. So, I feel kinda bad, I mean, why didn't she use me in the first place, but then again, she did offer me something. So, depending on the time commitment I'm hoping to do it. I made other plans because I wasn't going to do Fiddler....

arrgghh!!!

(written January 30th, 2007)

Life is so unfair! I know, I wasn't going to be upset and stuff about Fiddler, but it's so unfair. I just found out that Matt is probably doing it. Why? I don't know the specifics, all I know is he is the concertmaster (which means nothing in Benjamin's orchestra, Benjamin usually puts the best people in the back and the front), he's a voice student, and he also takes voice lessons from the theater teacher. So, he has an in, in other words Dr. Kris wanted him to do it. He told me last semester that he didn't want to, or something like that. Not fair!!! I suppose God has something else in mind. A better plan, but it's so hard. I wanted it so bad, a childhood dream! Things don't usually go the way I wish they would, I should be used to it by now. O.k. well I have to go to violin lessons. I'll be happy, I promise!

Katie

Finally! A quiz with Anne in it!

(written January 19th, 2007)

so.. anyway I found a quizfarm quiz for Jane Austen leading ladies. We have this "game" of sorts that we play. And each one of us has an Austen name. Mine is Anne Elliot. I've often wondered how much I am really like her. Well none of the Austen Quizzes even have Anne in them. Susie found one the other day that did. So, I took it and I am like Anne!!
Quiz farm doesn't seem to be working right this minute but luckily I copied the results.

Here they are!

Thoughtful and strong, you are very perceptive and very loyal to your friends. In an emergency, you are the first person to respond and are very capable in solving problems. You may depend upon the advice of someone you trust, but have learned through experience to use your own best judgment. Though you are considerate of the needs and wishes of others, you will take the opportunity to achieve your own happiness in the proper time.

Anne Elliot 80%

Elinor Dashwood 73%

Marianne Dashwood 65%

Fanny Price 63%

Elizabeth Bennet 63%

Catherine Morland 53%

Emma Woodhouse 45%

Intimate With Jesus

(written January 9th, 2007)

Sunday morning I was getting ready for church and I realized that I'd forgotten to read my Bible. Well there wasn't time so I grabbed "My Utmost For His Highest" it's always sitting by my bed. I thought "I'll just read the section for today, then I'll have a some Bible anyway." Well, I read it, and proceeded to think about it then whole rest of the day. It was really quick thought provoking.

January 7 - Intimate with Jesus

Have I been so long time with you, and yet hast thou not known Me? - JOHN 14:9

These words are not spoken as a rebuke, nor even with surprise; Jesus is leading Philip on. The last One with whom we get intimate is Jesus. Before Pentecost the disciples knew Jesus as the One Who gave them power to conquer demons and to bring about a revival (see Luke 10:18-20). It was a wonderful intimacy, but there was a much closer intimacy to come - "I have called you friends." Friendship is rare on earth. It means identity in thought and heart and spirit. The whole discipline of life is to enable us to enter into this closer relationship with Jesus Christ. We receive His blessings and know His Word, but do we know Him?

Jesus said, "It is expedient for you that I go away"- in a relationship, so that He might lead them on. It is a joy to Jesus when a disciple takes time to step more intimately with Him. Fruit bearing is always mentioned as the manifestation of an intimate union with Jesus Christ. (John 15:1-4).

When once we get intimate with Jesus we are never lonely, we never need sympathy, we can pour out all the time without being pathetic. The saint who is intimate with Jesus will never leave impressions of himself, but only the impression that Jesus is having unhindered way, because the last abyss of his nature has been satisfied by Jesus. The only impression left by such a life is that of the strong clam sanity that Our Lord gives to those who are intimate with Him.

The underlined part is what spoke the most to me. Then at church 2 different people both spoke about fortifications in our lives. Fortifications that are held by Satan and the only way to conquer it waas with God. O.k. kinda.. I'm not relaying it correctly. This is what I wrote in my notebook:

There are places in our souls that are fortifications can only be conquered by God. We have to submit ourselves to him and let him into those/that place in our soul.

So, that's had me thinking for a while....

Treated Like A Lady

(written December 31st, 2006)

I've been meaning to write this and I just now have time, sorry for the delay...

We spent Christmas Eve at my Gr. Grandma's house with my mom's family, she cousin's and their families. Well Mom's cousin Peggy's oldest son is right around my age, his name is Josh. I always liked Josh, he was a nice boy and seemed to have a good head on his shoulders. Well, he most definitely affirmed that in my mind on Christmas Eve. Josh is a true gentlemen. We ended up sitting next to each other at the dinner table. As the food was being passed around everytime something reached us Josh would hold it while I dished myself or pass it to me so I could serve myself, before serving himself. Needless to say I was very impressed. You rarely have a guy open a door for you let alone serve you before himself. So, I just wanted to share my blessing, imagine the delight I received, when I was treated like a lady, and not just because I am a lady, but because Josh is a gentlemen and that is the way he is. It wasn't a fake or one time thing but a true from the heart gesture. So anyway... there are still true gentlemen out there, be encouraged!

oh and HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!