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I'll be o.k. really I will...

I didn't get the Fiddler part I wanted so badly. I didn't even get to be in the pit and I am not going to cry. I won't I promise..... All I was told was that they made other arrangements for the violins and thanks for the interest. I worked so hard for the audition. And I was the only one who auditioned for the Fiddler part, I think. It's o.k. thought, I guess God just didn't want it to be and I will be happy with what He has and wants for me.

hmm...

My blog isn't showing up... on my computer anyway... That's strange, I'll figure it out..

concert dress

After 4 years I no longer fit in my concert dress. The really nice one I wear to every concert I play in..... hey, a girls allowed to grow...
Anyway I looked and looked for a modest affordable black dress.... it's impossible.... I found a really pretty black bridesmaid dress, it was a little low, but it was sleeveless and REALLY expensive. So I resorted to making my own. I used Butterick 4827 and a 50% coupon at JoAnn's and here is the result. What do you think?



You'll have to please excuse my face. I'm not used to playing for 2 hours, especially when one of those two hours was straight Franke. *faints from exhaustion* I swear my arm was going to fall off....
But I finished the dress and we had our first offical Symphony concert, personally I think it went really well no matter what the rest of the kids thought.
O.k. well, there is still hairspray that I am dying to get off of my hair, so off I go...

Sarah Beth!

Isn't she the cutest thing you ever saw!!!


Thoughts...

I know 2 posts in one day, quick call 9-1-1. Don't worry, I'm ok. I just found this, a friend of mine posted it, and I wanted to share.
What if NOTHING ever existed.

A hard thought to grasp.
What if GOD never existed.
If you're a Christian, you believe that if God never existed, nothing ever existed.
Without God, there is nothing. God made everything.
What if you weren't a Christian, or lets say that regardless of God, life had a beginning, and somehow, this earth, and its people, and the universe came to being.
What if God wasn't a part of it? What if there was NO ONE in control of everything.
What if there was no one to turn to when you feel like nobody else understands.
I just thought about all that for a few minutes, and I am SO GLAD I have such a wise God.
Anyway, these are just some things I was pondering earlier. Any thoughts?
Yes, definite thoughts! What if there was no one to turn to when you felt like no one understood, scary, isn't that what pushes people to suicide? When all along there is a God who understands, cares, and loves you. Insted he gets push him away, ignored, the understanding, the love, the help, it's all rejected. For a life of freedom, what I want, when I want, not answering to anyone, misunderstanding, loneliness, and depression. Yes, being a Christian isn't easy, but hey if all else fails I've never be lonely. I've had times where I felt alone, misunderstood, and in despair. But I clearly remember God speaking and saying "It's o.k. I'm here." Do you know the joy, and love that comes flooding into your sould at that moment. It picks you up off the ground and you fly on the wings of the love of God. I don't remember the reference but the Bible says "I will never leave you or forsake you. O.k. o.k I'm looking it up, Hebrews 13:5. It also reminds me of something I read it a book once.
You can never be where God is not.
There is no place where you can out distance Him.
No dark corner where He is not already there waiting for your arrival.
No deep recess of your heart and soul that He does not know of.
No secret that He does not share.
And he does have power, to change, to keep, to do the impossible....
for without Him, nothing of importance is possible.
We can only fumnble and stumble in darkness.
But with Him there is light, even in the hardest (I would include darkest) of time.

I'm terrible I know

I'm procrastinating terribly. I supposed to be going through my clothes and cleaning my room, but I'm not, I've been on the internet for a couple hours. I checked facebook out today, it' kinda scares me. I mean all it is is pictures of people drinking and using cuss words to tell other people that they like them, or whatever. Sigh, the degregation of the English Language. Not that I'm very good at it, on the contrary, I am terrible, I should study the dictionary or something....

So, the last 3 weeks have been insane. Dad was in Prague for 3 weeks which leaves guess who in charge of the store. Which wasn't all that bad except one of the assistant managers has been a terrible help, actually not a help at all..... I really wish he would grow up and stop acting like a little boy. Oh, and on top of taking care of the store, I helped planned a retreat for Symphonietta, which ended up kinda falling apart. Sometimes I feel like a scapegoat, I wonder, does that mean I'm gullible. Maybe I just take too much on myself.

I almost have enough money saved up to get the correspondence theory course. If only there wasn't such a thing as GEN EDs I would have a degree by now. I despise GEN EDS. I know they are supposed to make you a rounded individual, or something like that, but I think they are stupid. And why do you need 80 credits or something like that of them. So, I am going an alternative route. I am going to get a Certificate in Music Ministry. No that doesn't mean I am going to be a Music Pastor. I just want to learn what I need to know about music, and this is the easiest way. If I can CLEP enough GEN ED classes, I might eventually get a degree; but until then I am going to concetrate on the correspondence thing. Sometimes I wish I was born 100 years ago.

And I don't have any time to start my Harmony Road School, *sigh* that and no money, renting a building is REALLY expensive, ouch. Have you ever noticed that childish dreams rarely come true. But you know what, God is in control, and with him at the wheel my life is in much better shape. I shudder to think what my life would be like without God. Empty, lifeless and lonely. Have you ever heard this quote "Tell God your plans and he will laugh." I believe that is very true, my own plans usually fall flat, but when I do what God says, things work out to the right. Last summer on the farm was awesome. Possibly the best 3 months of my life, other than missing my family. oh, oh who wants to see a picture of Sarah Beth, the cutest baby sister in the world? O.k. o.k. don't beg, I will post one!

or 4
or not, come one work....

never mind how about I just post the links, sometimes my crazy computer...
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v84/PottersVessel/resized1.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v84/PottersVessel/resized2.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v84/PottersVessel/resized3.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v84/PottersVessel/th_9-9-06009.jpg

So, I should go finish my room. Besides I really wanted to start on my regency dress today. It's probably a good thing I don't have more time to sew, I would be broke from buying fabric. I would need 2 closets to hold all my clothes.

Talk to you later,
Katie

help!

Ok, I can't figure out the link thing at all, can someone explain it to me?

Dressing Modestly

Hey, I was just reading Krista's blogger, and she had a great link

http://www.biblicalwomanhoodonline.com/2006/08/three-cheers-for-modesty.html

Makes me even more determined to dress modestly.

P.S. Sorry I can't get it to make a real link. You will have to copy and paste, sorry...

yes, I know

I haven't posted in a long time. Well, my life is crazy right now, but I have adorable pictures of Sarah to post and stuff to talk about, but no time. I am heading to camp tomorrow and not packed and still working on stuff for camp. Yep, you guessed it, I'm a counselor/team leader/organizer/skit person/everything else... So, I will post later.

Bye!

the rest of the story

I forgot to post the rest of the story about the poem and handkerchief. After they said the poem, they turned the handkerchief over and there was a beautiful picture on the other side.

poem

This is a poem that Corried ten Boom used to tell. A friend of ours went to the ten Boom house in Holland this is what she said.

Anyway, at the end of the tour through the house, we were told this beautiful poem that Corrie ten Boom used to tell. An embroidered cloth was held up with the backside of it for us to see. It was all messy looking. The poem went like this:

“My life is like a weaving, between my God and me,
I do not choose the colors, He worketh steadily.
Oft times He weaveth sorrow, and I in foolish pride,
Forget He Sees the upper, and I the underside.
Not till the loom is silent, and the shuttles cease to fly,
Will God unroll the canvas and explain the reason why.
The dark threads are as needful in the skillful Weaver’s hand,
As the threads of gold and silver in the pattern He has planned.”
(by Grant Colfax Tullar)

Shadowlands Quotes

We were watching the end of Shadowlands tonight and C.S. Lewis, made three interesting comments.

Experience is a brutal teacher. But we learn.
How true is that!

We read to know we are not alone. Do you believe that???

Yes, I believe that. I know sometimes when I am lonely or want to be alone, but doing something. I will read. Let my imagine carry me somewhere (good mind you, not somewhere I shouldn't be). I like to end up in Vienna carrying my Guarnivari violin to rehearsal with Elysa. Do I always read that way? No, but sometimes I do. If gives my brain more information to take and imagine with. Imagining isn't always good, but sometimes it doesn't hurt.

Why do we love, if losing hurts so much??

This one, I don't really have an answer too. I mean, we love because God loved us. And he made us in His image and likeness. So we love because of God. Losing is a result of the fall, not something God intended for us. But we have to lose, but life is life and there is still a heaven and a hell. We still have to overcome this world and our own Adam natures. We love because God loves and because He instilled in us the desire for that Love. For the Philieo (sp?) love of God. Love like you will never find anywhere else...... So those are my thoughts... I hope it makes sense....

Innocence...

Knowledge is the opposite of innocence.


You see, if you don't know something you are innocent to it or of it. But the moment you learn something, realize or know something, you can no longer be innocent of it. I would rather be innocent of all the world's intigue's and pulls. To be innocent of all of them would be a wonderful thing. But once you know of them and about them you can never regain that innocence. It is lost forever. I hope that made sense....
Hello all!!!!

I know it's been forever since I posted last. I just haven't done it, I don't know why... things have been busy, school is over though. And I am enjoying coming home and not having anything to do. Well, nothing pressing. I just do whatever I want. I've been sewing, and getting my magazine stuff done on time. The tour was.... well interesting... it was very difficult, and the other students were disrespectful. to our conductor. I was very upset at them. They had no right to take out all of there stress over finals and such on Benjamin. He didn't do anything. So, it took some doing to fix everthing, but most of the leaders see their part in the disrespect and are set of fixing things.

I do know something fun though. I found out that Symphonietta (the orchestra I am in) got an invitation to play at an International Music Festival in Argentina. WOW!!!!! That is quite an honor. We were hoping for an invitation to the Wisconsin State Music Festival. So that's a major thing. I don't know if we are going or even if I am going. Anyway......

Sarah Beth is 2 months old now. But she is sick, we got a cold bug or something going around the house, and poor Sarah Beth is sick, she has trouble breathing sometimes and when she coughs you have to sit her upright so she can regain her breath.

I bought North and South last night! It was such a great movie, I enjoyed it immensly. I can't wait to watch it again. I bought Red River too, it was only $6 so it was a good buy.

I finally got my Master and Commander soundtrack in the mail. I absolutely LOVE the Bach Cello piece on there. Yo Yo Ma, playing my favorite cello piece. Makes me want to swoon. I just love that piece, it makes me relax and just *sigh*, I love that piece, my favorite!! And Yo Yo Ma plays it so well.

Well, I should probably go, I am not feeling well either, I'm all stuffed up and groggy. So I'm going to bed soon.

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exhausted

O.k I have been up since 4:00 a.m. with maybe an hour's nap. I'm on tour with the orchestra and it's been a rough and long day. So, I'm going to bed because it is now almost 10 and I have to get up about 5 because we have to eat and be on the bus at 6:30. This is crazy... this tour has been none stop and difficult. The principal 2nd violinist got sick so I have to move up. That's fine but dropping it on me a few minutes before a concert it not easy. Then we could find the first chair first violins because they were helping the principal 2nd. So, it was interesting,..... do you know that at 7 in the morning when you have already been up for 3 hours that your brain and your fingers don't connect very well. I was clefing out and reading in bass clef instead of tenor and my fingers were playing what they were supposed to be but it wasn't matching up with what my eyes were telling my brain. Hand eye cordination wasn't the best, but finger music cordination was working grand. So anyway I am going to bed. Tomorrow I get to go home and get a big hug from mom.... yay!!!!

cook

You Are a Learning Cook
You've got the makings of an excellent cook, and the desire to be one.But right now, you're just lacking the experience. You couldn't be a top chef yet, but you could be an apprentice.
Are You A Good Cook?

Who are you??


Apparently I'm Peter.
You are most like Peter Pevensie,
once High King of Narnia.
As Peter, you are brave,
loyal yet intelligent,
and are greatly respected
for upholding what you think is right.

One from President Washington

It is impossible to account for the creation of the universe, withou the agency
of a Supreme Being. It is impossible tto govern the universe, without the
aid of a Supreme Being. It is impossible to reason without arriving at a
Supreme Being. If there had been no God, mankind would have been obliged
to imagine one.

~George Washington
- And to think most of the world believes that the world was created because of a big bang. Not to mention they don't believe in God, except when strange things happen or when something goes wrong. Then it's what is God doing to me??? Why can they not see the obvious existence of God in the world. I believe it was Thomas Cole who said:
To observe nature closely is to follow the finger of God.
So, everyone lives with nature, right. Is there one person on earth who has not observed nature? Even the blind, deaf, and dumb have observed nature. I once heard the if you tell something a lie long enough and often enough, they will believe it. So, it the world suffering from the calamity of the lie that there is no God?

Hard as it seems.... I will listen

Hard as it seems, standing in dreams, where is the dreamer now?
Wonder if I, wanted to try. Would I remember how?
I don't know the way to go from here.
But I know that I have made my choice.
And this is where I stand until He moves me on
And I will listen to His voice
This the faith, patience to wait, when there is nothing clear.
Nothing to see, still we believe, Jesus is very near.
I can not imagine what will come.
But I've already made my choice.
And this is where I stand until He moves me on.
And I will listen to His voice.
Could it be that He is only waiting there to see?
If I will learn to love the dreams that He has dreamed for me?
Can't imagine what the future holds,
But I've already made my choice.
And this is where I stand until He moves me on.
And I will listen to His voice
~Twila Paris

Trusting Him

Trusting Him, trusting Him,
Leaning on Jesus,
Knowing that whatever comes is in His control.
Trusting Him, Trusting Him,
Leaning on Jesus,
Everything will be o.k. cause I'm trusting in Him.

Quote #2 for today

People treat life as though it's the dress rehearsal for some big show. It's not. This is it."
- Jane Seymour -
How true is that. We think we have a second chance at things, guess what, we don't. We only get one chance. One chance to do the right thing, one chance to share God with someone that might otherwise never hear about God, did you ever think of it like that.....???

Quote

To love is to allow hope into your life.
To hope is to allow uncertainty into your life.
To be uncertain is the essence of learning to trust God to bring only the disappointments
He deems best.

Update

Hey everyone!!! I have an extra minute before orchestra so I am posting quick.

This weekend was crazy. My sister's play was this weekend, plus we had company, who came for the play, I love having company, but it was busy. The play was great. Debbie did a totally awesome job as Phillipa Gordon (They did Anne of Avonlea). I think she was the audience's favorite. They would erupt into applause whenever she finished a scene. The bad thing is you can't hear the audience with the curtain shut, so she didn't know.


I really miss being in theater. It is one of the most awesome things you could ever do. We have often talked of doing an alumni drama but,..... the ever present time gets in the way. Plus I don't think we could get any of the guys to do it, and ummm..... I got tired of being the boy years ago. When we would do plays at home I was always the boy because I was the tallest and could make my voice the lowest, which is fine, but I got very tired of it.......

Well, I guess it is off to orchestra..... I will post more including pictures later, maybe, o.k. later this week for sure :)


BTW it is 70 outside!!!!!!

Katie

I will post a quote/poem/etc later as well.

Quote Time!!

I have been driven many times upon my knees by the overwhelming conviction that I had nowhere else to go.
~Abraham Lincoln
For want of a nail
the shoe is lost,
For want of a shoe
the horse is lost,
For want of a horse
the rider is lost,
For want of a rider
the battle is lost,
For want of a battle
the war is lost,
For want of a war
the nation is lost,
All for want of a horse shoe nail.
~George Herbert
1593-1632

Catching up

Hello everyone!!! I know it's been forever since I last posted. Life has been busy, busy, busy.

The most important thing that has happened is the birth of my baby sister: Sarah Elisabeth (Sarah Beth) was born on March 24th at 9:30 p.m. She weighed 7lbs. 5oz. and was 21 inches long. She is so precious to have around, and she is a very good baby. She sleeps well during the night so mom is getting her sleep and we are all doing well. Here are 2 pictures!!!



Last week I played in my first pit orchestra. It was quite the experience. I've always wanted to be in a pit orchestra and one of the local HS was looking for violins. So I volunteered. They did Annie Get Your Gun. It went fairly well. The conducter was strange, it was very difficult to follow him. I won't say anything else, because, well you don't want to get me started, it wasn't fun. Being in pit orchestras is a good thing for me to get into doing. If you play for opera houses and such, you get paid, so it would be a good thing to do on the side for some money.

Other than that I've been keeping busy doing normal stuff. IDD moved recently. I feel like crying, it's changed. I don't know how much longer I'll keep posting. I've been cutting back and cutting back, how long before I just leave..... And it's hard, I don't know what's up with me recently. I'm so emotional. You don't know me well enough, but I not an emotional person, I rarely cry, even at movies.....

Well, it is way past my bedtime, and I have a busy weekend ahead. I will try to post again soon.

Katie

my quote for today

O.k. here's my quote for today. It's taken from the book Jonah and the Worm.

Little Worm, remember, I live in the heavens too. I will take care of Early Bird. I will keep you in the right way. If you are willing to do My will, you will find me willing to be your shield.

yawn

Well, I'm tired and it's late, but If I'm going to keep up with this blog, I have to get into the habit of posting.

Today, we had a excellent meeting. Then we went out to eat. It's quite interesting, you can go out to eat witha bunch of people. End up sitting with just your sisters and still have a great time talking. Not exactly the fellowship I was thinking of doing while eating but it's just as much fun. I thank God daily for my sisters. I don't know what I would do without them. They are my bestest friends and I love and appreciate them greatly.

Then we went shopping at a new accesory store. I bought a necklace, it's really pretty.

Then we came home and I took off for pit rehearsal. I'm playing in my first pit orchestra. I don't know why it's taken this long, but I am finally in a pit. It's a local high school and they are doing Annie Get Your Gun. Rehearsal went much better than it has been. It's been interesting cause I'm really cautious. I don't want to make a big mistake and be super embarassed. I've decided that I do know what I'm doing and to just keep plugging along and I'll be fine. It seemed to work pretty well. I'm be playing along and doing well until I check the conductor to see if I'm with him, and then I get messed up, I forget to count. Oh, that's one of my major problems, musicwise, I never counted when I was younger. I found some way to get around it. So, now, I really HAVE TO count. So, I'm trying to get into the habit now, and learning it the hard way. Did you know you can play a whole song with counting once. It's possible, I've done it, it's not a good habit to have. I don't suggest it to anyone, it makes life difficult down the road.

Hey!!! I just found the color font button. Cool!!! I might use this more often. I wonder which ones are easy to read.......

Well, it's getting late, and when I get tired, I ramble, so I'd better go before I start rambling and making no sense whatsoever.

Night!!

A Child of the King

I recently came across this vision.

One day I was crying out to God and telling Him, “I don’t have a good testimony, I’ve grown up in the church and … you know I’ve grown up around the things of the Lord. I don’t have a great testimony like some of these people have.” And God answered my prayer and He said, “Let Me tell you what has actually happened in your life.” Immediately I saw myself as a small child and I was dressed in rags. I was a slave amongst hundreds of millions of people. There were chains about our ankles and we were slowly walking on our way to death. We were so sad, so oppressed, and so lifeless. As we were stumbling along on our way to certain death, we passed by this beautiful palace. The doors swung open and this beautiful King came through the midst of the crowd. He came right up to me, he pointed at me and He said, “You! I choose you. I want to be your Father; would you like to be My child? I want to adopt you, and take you into My kingdom and raise you as My child. Do you want that?” I instantly replied, “Yes!” Immediately I was taken into the courts of the Lord. I was rushed off by these maids. These maids took me, they scrubbed me down, they groomed me, and they dressed me in the most beautiful robes. When they stood me before the King, I will never forget what happened next. The King got down on His knee, He looked me right in the eye and said, “You have to get one thing straight. From this day forward I am your Father and you are My child. You are never, ever to think or act or behave or dress like a slave again. You are royalty.” Something inside of me happened and I knew who I was! I knew it would so desperately break His heart for me to act like a slave when He was my Father who loved me and wanted me to be His child. Oftentimes we are in His courts and we still think like slaves.” And that was the end of the vision.

And then this hymn. It was written in 1877 by Harriet E. Buell

My Father is rich in houses and lands,
He holdeth the wealth of the world in His hands!
Of rubies and diamonds, of silver and gold,
His coffers are full, He has riches untold.

I'm a child of the King,
A child of the King:
With Jesus my Savior,
I'm a child of the King.

My Father's own Son, the Savior of men,
Once wandered on earth as the poorest of them:
But now He is pleading our pardon on high.
That we may be His, when He comes by and by.

I once was an outcast, stranger on earth,
A sinner by choice, an alien by birth.
But I've been adopted, my name's written down,
An heir to a mansion, a robe and a crown.

A tent or a cottage, why should I care?
They're building a palace fore me over there;
Though exiled from home, yet still may I sing;
All glory to God. I'm a child of the King.

Saturday...

Well, it is 12:30 p.m. on Saturday and I am still in bed with my PJ's on. No, I'm not sick or being lazy. I have a bunch of magazine work to do and get out asap so I got up, ate breakfast and now I am hard at work. Just taking a small break while I talk to Sarah:) I'm almost done though, yeah!!! I only have to finish the song and then email a ton of stuff. After that, baby quilt here I come :) Oh, I should probably practice first. *sigh* violin is not as fun as it used to be. Why did I have to change teachers, argg....... O.k. never mind. My life has been kinda difficult lately. I think it gets this way ever spring. Things get busy at work and that makes life stressful, but you really don't need to hear a sob story so. Oh to something else. I am majorly multitasking. I am writing this, working on th magazine, and talking to Sarah and Grandma, oh and looking for music pictures. Hehe. O.k. well, I should get to work. I have lots of stuff to do and school starts back up on Monday.

Bye....

Today

Today was pretty normal. I got my eyes checked this morning. I'm going to get contacts. I also had to have my eyes dialated. Yuck! It's not fun. My eyes started hurting in the afternoon. I think they were just tired.

We got some snow today, well kinda, it was more like slush.

After I got home from work I took a long shower/bath, it felt so good. Sometimes I really get tired of my life, so I take a nice bath and read a book and try and forget about it.

Afterwards I worked on the baby's quilt. I haven't quilted in a long time so it is taking me a lot longer than I thought it would. I am finally making progress though....

Now, I should be working on the KIT stuff but I was having computer troubles so I took a break. I have so much work to do, and I keep getting more. AHHHHH!!!!!!!!! One of these days I'm going to crack, I pity the person who is near me when it happens.

I wish I could figure out how to add friends. I gotta add Deb, Sarah, and Laura, and I can't figure out how.....

Welcome!!!

Welcome to my journal on the web. I will attempt to keep up this blog. Just a little bit on what's going on in my life.

I hope you enjoy yourself.

Katie
~TheKingsFiddler~